whether sudden or gradual, seems to have a multi-layered effect.
As you move through your life,
dragging your body along - or vice versa - and you enter
into different phases of your life your entire self-image changes.
I moved countries under extreme
circumstances and have in the process lost much of my identity. I
used to be just so hot to trot working for a famous TV show,
fraternizing, patronizing, organizing and energizing.
Well, all that has gone now and I
have been left with the bare bones of myself and I am still rather
clueless as to what direction to be heading towards.
The good thing is that I no longer
feel like a lost dog on the highway. The confusion has calmed
within me and tranquility is returning. It's sort of that
acceptance thing that others so flippantly speak of in psychology
I feel that what will be will be. My
contract is coming to an end on the 23rd or so of this April
month, 2002 and I have not heard one word from Kelly Services as
to future work. My attempts to get into the web business have thus
far come to naught but I have had a wonderful time snuffling
around on the web looking at what work is out there and realizing
that I have not yet crumbled into selling out.
Something will happen and I do
believe it will be a good something.
Hope is such an interesting
substance and truly, it does spring eternal in the human heart. It
is like a fountain, sometimes choked up with stuff but when
cleared it bubbles right back up to the surface, lighting up my
In the meantime, what with my few
pennies and my inability to leave Tennessee, I am long-necked
curious to see what is just around the corner on my American
I have been very protected for the
most part here in this office in Franklin. I have had opportunity
to further my software skills, corporate networking and meet some
truly good and smart humans. I will leave this assignment with a
pang of regret and feeling appreciated. I have changed my mind
about computer types.
I do hope that some semblance of
peace comes to the Middle East.
And you - Person - have a nice day today. I insist.