times I must take a breather and congratulate myself at my stamina for
survival. It's not that I am continually under dire
circumstances - believe me, I have had many of those - it's more
at my capacity to survive heartache.
have a heart that suffers greatly when friends or family turn
away. These days I am beginning to respond rather quickly. I absorb
the wounds without resistance but the mental processes hop to the rescue
and do their damage control and swiftly deliver conclusions
and wisdoms to the central core of me.
fact that I have a decidedly chirpy streak makes healing responses that
much quicker. I think the muscle tone of my character is decidedly
defined. I can't say the same for my decaying
physical body but that subject is a horse of
another color and I don't want to go there right now.
have now healed from the hardest heartbreak of my life thus far and the
experience has left me softer, kinder and stronger.
was discarded and have been forced to examine the very structure of my
social development. And after all that - hunger, poverty, fear and
unfathomable sorrow I am emerging with a
stronger will, a sense of self and the desire to achieve those goals which